procrastinator!

2009-10-18T23:18:00.001+08:00

RELINK ME YAWL.
www.eyesonmytuesdays.onsugar.com
i'm still a dummie on it though :/

i'm fallin for you.

2009-10-03T23:32:00.002+08:00

ok! so after awhile, a decent update!

lets start from weds!:D
met taha and cabbed down to KK to pay atiq's brother a visit! be strong zul(: and get well real soon!haha, after an hour plus, we left for Vivo city cos its been awhile since we had a proper date out.went to The Mussel Guys for lunch.stuffed ourselves with seafood from the appetizers to main course.haha!didn't know what else to do after so we went to check out the movie slots and we settled for The Time Travelers Wife! been dying to watch it with him.so, AT LAST!left for home thereafter!

thursday!????
didn't meet him i think...did we taha? i reckon so.
SO IT WAS STAY HOME THURSDAY! i had tuition if i'm not mistaken.
&awkward useless nothings.

friday!
initial plan was to take a trip down town but SOMEBODY had to join his family for visiting! so i left for marine parade library to do up some math.despite having tuition earlier in the day! must chiong mah! haha.

saturday!
breakfast day out with taha!:D haha.its our first breakfast! so sexciting.haha!went to Macs at East Coast even though he did mention bout Subway.haha!sorry dear.haha!sat around East Coast and 'pop' a plan came in.karaoke!!!!!!!!!! hahaha.at Katong.super last minute but yeah, we got it from 1 to 3.sang the all time favourites and had truck loads of fun!!!!! 'you know i know people don't know!' haha.cabbed back home cos we had to join our families for visiting!

hit me baby one more time

2009-10-01T16:28:00.002+08:00

beware! this post will be infested with contradictions and thoughts of an unsure soul!

yes! i farhanah ahmad is once again FILLED with doubts.(when was i ever doubt free) ya'kno it sucks when you know that your relationship is only gonna last till a stated time.it sucks when he can't be there for you always.it sucks when you've got a major exam just round the corner and yeah, even if there weren't any it prolly couldn't have made any difference to his schedule.for as much, as i feel for you, love you whatever!gosh!i'm still the confused kid i've always been.and i don't think i can ever change that anytime soon.i'm sorry.i'm totally cheating on you.for all the faith and love EVERYTHING you've showered me with...i'm gonna be a bitch and say.its not enough!for me to totally be on the same path as you.give me some time.space, even though its currently more than enough.prolly its just the exams.(and yeah, thats the best excuse i can come up with!)

i think i know whats up...
i'm lonely.

goreeeeee

2009-09-26T01:01:00.003+08:00

i'm missing my dearest to bits! ):
hmmph! he's off to KL for visiting! that simply burns my weekend! i was so pissed that he was leaving w/o even meeting for the last time, before he leaves? for two days?omgosh i sound like an overly psychotic biartch! tsk.anyways, best therapy for anger and frustration? haha.yes!!! shop!went down to Parkway to run some errands for myself and yeah, myself(: haha!got back by 9:30 and stonned while accompanying mumzy watch tv! haha.and then my saviour called!!!! Nadiah(: haha.went down to the nearby shop to eat.and yes, lately i've been sneaking out when my mum's asleep! and in return of avoiding from my mum, granny just sounded me and asking me why i went out for a long time at night-..- its pretty scary when she talks to me as in nag? cos she rarely does it so if she does so, its like a bullet shot right thru my face! haha.anyways, i've got science practical tomorrow! i'm still pending on if i should go for the first or second session! shitte.i hate this part right here cos i can't bloody hell decide-..- &! mariah carey's song is so not helping ): - without you.
i miss you la you jerk!(he admitted that he was/is?) haha! its ok! two more days.time flies.flies.
oh! we're officially together btw.haha(: super elated.this is how it happened more like the conversation....

i heard something like i'm his gf so i was like, "NO I'M NOT!" then he said, " NO! i'm asking you if you'd be my gf!" hahaha.i swear my heart was pumping blood real fast to my pussy! haha.i said," what do you think (:(:(:(:(:(:(:" haha! he said," yes!" haha.

it was kinda abrupt, but in a good way????? cos i certainly didn't see it coming...

its officially official

2009-09-24T12:29:00.002+08:00

hello!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok so before i begin, i would like to wish all the malay muslims out there ....
SELAMAT HARI RAYA!(i know its pretty belated but who cares!) haha. this year's celebration just couldn't get any better! with the two new members, brother in law and van-anna, even more awesome.haha!i really don't have the time to blog for these few weeks, cos o's is just round the corner.
SO! take care yawl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

XOXO

lovestruck

2009-09-17T23:37:00.002+08:00

aniyohasayo!!!!!! :*

had my chem paper today.physics tomorrow and ta-daaaa! we're done(: then can raya and be merry! hahahaha.went back and helped mumzy bake! we're like baking real lots like really lots la.haha! no la.then went down to meet up with ta-hahaha! before going up to cousin sri's place to get her unwanted bags...call me a trash, but if its still in good condition and looks awesome, just grab it la, free! hahaha. was supposed to have physics tuition with yanyan, but i called it off cos i wanted to do my own revisions.so yeah, met the guys and naddy who went for threading earlier in the day, her face looks much more defined now! for someone who isn't a whore for make ups, the newly shaped brows would certainly help add some colour(: haha!

got back and my brother wanted to put up pictures of himself in his room.so i grabbed pics of him when he was small and looked totally cute unlike now -..- now like mopeng king! hahaha.i'm so mean-not! i'm freaking hungryyyyyyy.haven't been eating proper meals ): hmms....

fasting month is coming to an end real soon ):
and i can't go for the raya prayers cos yeah.....
monthly routine. sobsxsxsxsxs!

Hatin on the club!

2009-09-15T23:17:00.004+08:00

before i begin!(:
thank you syazey for the awesome tracks you've added to my creative!
p/s: i'm super stuck on Hatin on the club- Rihanna

had math prelim today. i am.out of words, shall just see how it turns out!high hopes?prolly just better than the previous one.brother fetched me after and i went straight for the bed.damn tired la please-..- next paper on Thursday, Chem!this one, no screw ups! am aiming for another A1 for my sciences.fat dreams? hell yeah.what do you expect? its my freaking second round!followed by Physics on Friday!!!! after that can stuff myself with all the ketupat's and rendangs in the world! hahaha(: met up with jordan achap and( 'DJ khalis!' hahah! ) aidil.... we wanted to do a video on pimp my ride.hahaha! cos i had the car keys with me.but yeah, didn't! camel came...(haha! taha i mean) and we had this challenge to finish up a 3/4 filled bottle of sucky tasting cherryade! super sick i tell you.spin my phone, and a gulp each to whoever it points at! added my carrot juice and coke. yes, extra sick! i accidentally spit it out like merlion! hahahaha.cos jordan was making a joke? or was it the puking sound? haha! something that made me 'puke' la basically.damn gross!

"Je t'amie tellement Syed Taha(:"

i know you despise me calling you 'syed'...
haha

cool

2009-09-14T20:06:00.001+08:00

i did a cover of Broken Strings last night(:
and i tried out the editing on photobucket!
super cool!
hahahaha.

2009-09-13T00:57:00.002+08:00

hello!

so so so what happened?
haha! woke up to the awesome scent of baked/baking cookies? haha.ok well not exactly cookies, more of pineapple tarts! that's like a total must for the festive season!sister came over to help mumzy bake them! woke up and helped them like straight away, was lazy to bathe...WHATS NEW! hahahahaha.call me a whore for that! well of course i showered after that! -..- haha! had to run some errands for mumzy and i swear, God why is the weather freaking hot!!!!!!!! my underarms was like a running pipe when i was out la! hahahahahahahaha.but thankfully i was wearing white, so cannot see! hahaha.shame shame! =,=" lol! got back and had my power nap!!!! my super 'small sized sister' shared the freaking single sized bed with me la! like whaaaaaaaaaaaat! i was at the edge like the whole time and for once i did not move an inch when sleeping! hahahah.

for break fast had my all time favourite, mee soto and yeah two packets of that! after prayers i went for chicken rice!(: hahaha.call me a pig! but hail the high metabolism rate bitches! hahahaha.i can eat and store(pouch) like Van-Anna and i'll still have this slim yet flabby figure.EWW! totalle turn off, whatever! i've got a man who believes that my imperfections make me more something? did i get that right taha? hahaha! as in the phrasing, the whole gist of it is right! (ok wait i'm texting him, i'm very sexcited and i wanna know the exact phrase!)OK!! after cracking his arab brain! its, "your imperfection(s) only makes you more beautiful" awww! i know, say it with me! (awwwwwwwwwww!) hahahaha!i added an 's' to the imperfection cos i've got tons of flaws.itchy rough hands, scars on my legs,(this one damn sad!) and flab's and cellulite that's super obvious if you pinch it!!!!!!!!!! ): sad no more cos he doesn't mind it (: hahaha!

ok i want do my thang!
tatatata!
love you all!(:

feeling multi/triple lingual!

2009-09-11T01:20:00.003+08:00

ogengy deska readers? :D
hahahaha!
i dearly miss my chingu's !
hahaha!

above are like jap and korean phrases. dearest yanyan is a whore for such cool languages. ogengy deska as you all know is, "how are you" in Jap. and chingu is "friend" in Korean(: my prelims, yes just prelims ! is on next tues-..- and lets see how much i've covered... big no no for math! haha. but i'm certain well hope that its not gonna be such a sore! bleah. i'm gonna flip some pages after hogging on the phone with taha! fingers crossed that i'll still have energy to do so thereafter...

Goodnight lovebirds!
XOXO

itchy

2009-09-10T17:02:00.002+08:00

i am super like really God damned pissed!like ugh.
and so i was in the toilet trimming these minah brows of mine.hahaha! call me a cheapo cos i don't seek professional help...haha!so there was this particular strand that seemed particularly irritating! and i was lazy to use the tweezers so i SMARTLY decided on using a shaver instead.(omgosh!)then suddenly!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i accidentally shaved off the butt of my left brow.but thankfully not all of it is gone, just not thick as usual! hahahaha.now i've got no choice but to leave my fringe down or else mumzy's gonna freak out! haha.

gave school a miss.firstly cos i got 2 days mc after visiting my skin doctor.and i was just dead tired from late night hogging with mr lovebird(: oh! and to my stalkers, no worries, i've yet to have SEX with taha-..- i'll inform you girls no worries, yes you girls(only one) might have apologized, but hey, its my name that you've taint. so shizzle ma nizzle, when i feel like it then i shall consider bout dropping the topic.get it?! don't get it? go screw your own arshhole, and smell.(ahahahahahah! can't believe i just said that) haha!and this goes to all my 'fans' out there who seriously can't keep their thoughts to themselves.sad life i know! their life is too dull and boring that they so WISH they were a part of my oh so extravagant/lavish/filled with attention from my loved ones kinda life(: haha!oh boy! its the fasting month and i'm sounding so meannnn!rooooar!

sister's coming over for breakfast, nope! not with her hubby.no one bothers to ask why...

i'm greatly missing my super most understanding future to be):

joooo

2009-09-09T16:00:00.003+08:00

aniyohasayo!

my hands are itching real bad like really really bad.prolly cos i just helped mumzy in the kitchen, i helped her out while she was cooking(: and i had to do the dishes after that-..- out of all the household chores, i can never ever tolerate washing.cos to begin with, these delicate hands of mine get itchy when exposed to dirty water.and then it get all dry and chappy!i've been making frequent visits to my skin doctor and he's been giving me the same lotion! he said i'm allergic to seafood esp prawns.like hello! i'd rather die if i can't eat prawns la! ugh.and its been awhile since he did a thorough check on me and he wants to INJECT me! imagine.he wants to inject me!!!!!!!!! the needle's and what blah! hahaha.like as if i'm phobiaretical of needles! puh-lease! lol.its 4 pm now and i've got tuition at 5 till prolly 645? haha.i can't wait for tuition.cos cos cos, after that it'll be time for break fast! hahaha.

talk to you soon people.
XOXO

running out of 'eggs'? taha will gladly provide you some!

&oh! sorry taha for not being able to spend much time with you.
you're always busy actually,busier than i am!...hmph!
ily.

van-anna on the loose

2009-09-08T23:11:00.003+08:00

check out how van-anna eats! totally adorable!!!

& so after i got back from prayers, i decided to clear up van-anna's cage! such an awesome owner i know(: anyways, when i clear up my hamster's cage, i would put them in a box or something.so i placed van-anna in a shoe box and didn't think of the con's.and oh! i'm toilet training her too(: i didn't know that hamsters can be toilet trained! very cat/dog-ish but yeah.hahaha! hopefully she knows where to poopoo at! not anyhow, anywhere! and after it was all cleared up, i wanted to place her back in her cage, she was missing! (jengX3) hahahaha! she was roaming with no direction on my brother's bed! hahaha.she looked super lost but still cute at the same time(: haha.picked her up and placed her in her cage.hahaha!

secret keeper
my secrets aren't meant to known by the world.duh!-..- secret!

TONIGHT'S GONNA BE A GOOD GOOD NIGHT!

2009-09-08T18:46:00.001+08:00

this boy is superrrrrrrrrrrr cute! his cheeks are sooo pinchable.

sorry's.

2009-09-08T17:46:00.002+08:00

all it takes is 'sorry' and everything's settled.
i don't like having draggy tiffs.

3 words for you.

2009-09-07T23:04:00.003+08:00

madly in love!

i know wrong timing for such stuff! but who cares.i think.well! we rarely meet, its just me having to work my own ass off for the exams.i can safely state that i'm getting lazier by day to study...fasting month? not an excuse.hmms.i need need to study!super whopper slap on my own face!!!!! (ouch!) hahahaha.had my longed for mega mac spicy just now! made me super super full cos back at home mumzy cooked laksa! hahaha.i feel like a pig.feel only! hahaha.oh! my blogskin is freaking pretty right!plus the song and all...lalala~ ok i need to study!!!!!! talk to you soon macrs.(and that my fellow readers is a short form for maple-applecrrrrumble-ers) haha!

ciao.

crunchhh

2009-09-07T17:03:00.003+08:00

hello macrs.

i just made for Van-Anna homemade hamster treats.ok i didn't make it, i just went online and thought of googling on how i can take good/better care of Van-Anna.hamster's love carrots,celery,lettuce.so i gave her just a small tiny slice of carrot to see how she reacted to it and yeah, not a fan of veggie's just finished up 3/4 of that TINY slice -..- therefore i didn't leave any on her bowl.cos these veggie's they'll turn bad if you leave em off the fridge so yeah.in order to have Van-Anna not to bite me, i'm supposed to socialize with her more, so that she knows i'm not out to harm her and etc.but i guess i've started a lil to late cos she bit me.ok maybe only once, and it didn't hurt.prolly just nibbled but still! she can like get all so shiok then bite me harder! haha.but she's sooooo adorable i can't stand not picking her up! oh well.

enough of Van-anna!
was supposed to have tuition after school but but but, yanyan couldn't make it.so yeah took a power nap which basically lasted for 4 hours! hahaha.and! i've been craving for mc spicy ever since taha mentioned it to me!soooooo, i'll prolly be calling in Mac's for the meeeeeeeeeeega mc spiiiiiiiiicy! yums.omgosh i swear i'm salivating now! hmms...what shall i do now?! 2 more hours till breakfast....study? oh my.

byebye :D

2009-09-05T18:38:00.005+08:00

below are MOST of the pictures.
a word of caution, taha has many many mc steamy shots-..-
oh well! ttyl.

mc dreamy & mc steamy!

captionless? haha

munkey see munkey do!

2009-09-05T00:22:00.010+08:00

o

fingers crossed on my oh so sucky connection! Oo.

anyways, HAD AN AWESOME DINNER despite it being pretty last minute
with rai, idham, suzana and raini.not forgetting taha(: thank you so much for counting us in!
it was at Holiday Inn Hotel and hell yeah was it a filling buffet.at an amazing price of 28 buckaroos per head! so yeah.ate till, we couldn't and yeah, it was nice, ESP! the desserts! totally orgasmic liao.from fondue's to pies.yumyums! if i'm not mistaken we were there for close to 2 hours, or prolly more before we decided to go back cos we were all broke (: haha! well, at least its a good reason for us to leave town on a Friday night! haha.and so we went on separate ways, Tanah Merah for taha and me, and either Tamp or Pasir Ris for Rai and Idham.Taha and i walked back to bsa3 to meet up with jo and the others for a awhile before i decided to make a move! damn tired man i swear.and if it helps, i've got tuition tomorrow at noon at that means i'm gonna give science prac a miss.dang! haha.(dang! like as if i'm affected by it!) haha.

all in all, had an awesome day out to town with my spandex aka latex for raihanah and yes, with the guy i'm truely madly deeply in love with! :D aww! haha.anyways, i know and am aware that i've brought across the phrase of being TRULY MADLY IN LOVE a couple of times, but honestly, i do wish that when i say it, it won't be just for that period of time...i am labeled sick and tired of cock and bull relationships! -..- period!

*its cocking up alrdy! more pics tomorrow!*
XOXO
love ya'll.

thirsty!

2009-09-02T17:25:00.004+08:00

holla!(:

& so it was shopping day out with mumzy! and that calls for a pretty long post! hah. cabbed down to Tampines Mall cos she needed to get her heels and i needed to get a bag for hari raya! haha.and amazingly she gave me a limit of no more than hundred -..- like whaaaaaaaat! i was eying this braun buffel purse): oh wells, no point blabbering, waste saliva, later thirsty cos fasting month! hahaha.so i ended up getting a MNG purse/bag at an amazing price of $35!!!!! nowadays really no point splurging, heart pain!so yeah, i liked it, she loved it.haha! left and went around to look for mumzy heels.sadly, she couldn't get the kinda heels she wants cos its hard to get a nice pattern with a colour that would match with the bag sister got for her as a gift on mumzy day! haha.so yeah, cabbed down to Ikea to get my longed awaited sexy cute frames.i saw this polaroid-ish looking long frame in the 2010 catalogue so yeah, grabbed our bow and arrows in the search for the sexxxxy frame! hahaha.to begin with, we had a freaking hard time deciding for the coloured cute napkins.haha! we went from one section to another just replacing the napkins.hahahahahahaha! until we went down after viewing the showcases, then thy ultimate word of...... "SHOPPING" was on the line.hahaha!we bought scented candles, lamps,rugs, vases,bedsheets,flowers,clocks,storage boxes and other storage related items(: haha! i wanna have my own house fully renovated with Ikea thingies! haha.and when we entered the store

i said...
"i've always liked the smell of Ikea, very nice...very woody!"
mumzy replied...
"its just the smell of angmoh's, you want right..."

SHE SO KNOWS MY LIFE ASPIRATIONS.hahaha! but ya know, dreams.DREAM ON DREAMER! haha.so yeah, after that i waited for her at the Ikea taxi stand while she waddled her way to Giant accross the road-..- damn slow la please.and for that we ended with an apek who prolly has forgotten to zip up his pants-..-! (feeling lucky ah uncle? wear red some more!) hahahahahahahahaahaha! had a good laugh with mumzy:D oh yeah! a funny convo aunty and mumzy had with the taxi driver last night..

driver....
"wah! this time ah got alot of businessman come ah..for the APEK(its supposed to be APEC!)
aunty...
"what? apek?"
mumzy...
"APEC la APEC!"
driver...
" ya ya...APEK!"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAHAAHHAAHHAHHAAHAHAHHAAHAHHA! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAHAAHHAAHHAHHAAHAHAHHAAHAHHA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAHAAHHAAHHAHHAAHAHAHHAAHAHHA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAHAAHHAAHHAHHAAHAHAHHAAHAHHA

anyways, bought the sexxxay frame plus the typical woody super recycled ones.haha! i tried some DIY back at home-..- hahahaha! i've got a shoutout to make, "i can't write with paintbrushes at all i swear!!!!!!!!!!!!!" haha.but oh well, wasn't as disastrous as i thought it'd be(: haha!

whines

2009-09-02T05:42:00.002+08:00

i so have to tell you guys about this.lol!
my mum came into my room to wake me up for breakfast,like ya at 5:15 am...
and to my utmost stupidity, i dived down from the bed and the mattress thingy under my bed was quarter way out so one of my leg, right one to be precise, got stuck there while my other leg was already on the ground-..- basically the idea of me diving down was already a total wth.and yeah, all my mum did/said was, "why did you do that? hurry up" and there she was the long legged bimbo-tic frequency hoe on the floor whining in pain,and that pretty much lasted for 2 minutes or so before i got back up, cos i was hungry and my mum wasn't there to entertain to my whines.haha!it hurts real bad.you know taha, it hurts real bad )): pain taha! paaaaaaaaaaaaaain!!!!!!!

van-anna is starting to bite me ):

2009-08-30T23:55:00.002+08:00

hello!:D
i just got back from dinner(date?) with taha.hahaha!cabbed down to east coast and yeah, the breeze the crowd,(me, myself,him,he) hahahaha! we had the longest time in the world to talk cock and bull and to serenade one another(me to myself) hahahahaha! and yeah, thank you so much for the necklace, its awesome! love it. and yeah, for the night itself, amazing! (so amazing!) haha.

and oh! i did a video.
check this shitte out!
love ya'll.
XOXO

as i am

2009-08-30T01:13:00.002+08:00

sweetheart,
please do not feel bad/upset in any way cos i appreciate the effort/intention you had.its alright cos things dont always happen as planned(: it was the sweetest thought ever.i love you dear, really really like totally !i'd give anything and everything.and i will always care, thru weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow, for better for worse, i will love you with every bit of my heart.so cliche like that! whatev-er! thank you for just being there for me.

i'll say that i'm falling in love with you

2009-08-27T17:34:00.003+08:00

heyhey!(:

we've been blessed with a new family member! *jumpsjumps*(no my sister didn't give birth) dearest naddy just got for a me a hamster as my bday gift(: its the pearl white breed and yes its all white.name? currently still pending, i've got a strong feel that its a female, the guy couldn't tell its sex yet cos its still small... so yeah.before naddy got it for me, i was thinking of scoox, cos i like the sour sour gummy at 7-11 and its brand is scoox! cool right.anyways, naddy gave a big no-no.other names we thought of was Dolce(yes from DNG!) ,Lily cos its white, and Lily Vanilla cos ...its white too? and i went online and i saw a hamster, and her name's Marshmallow! like really really cute i know.then i can call it Marshy.STILL,since it was imported from Holland, how bout a hollander? name! hahahaha.so we remembered the soccer player(: Ruud Van Nistlerooy? hahahaha.yeah..so prolly Van Anna.weird but unique(: hahahahahaha.so yes, the new baby's name is Van Anna!(it prolly means, pet of Anna) hahahaha!

thank you so much once again naddy, it was a fucking splurge i swear.i'm super sorry and thank you.haha! loves.Van Anna loves you too.

XOXO

2009-08-27T00:32:00.003+08:00

she has THY firmest ass!

mumzy has got this huge V shaped mark from oil splattering yesterday!its huuuuuuuuuuuge.and you know pop-able if you just pop it? haha! she's awesome.ya know when you feel so down and lost? for me its like, why the fuck am i still doing my o's?! ( i still can't accept that fact, even up till this stage ) but still, prolly God has better plans for me!:D haha! and yeah, she's still super motivating, ensures that i've got ALL the study materials etc to pass well! i'm so happy my mumzy is very mumzy-like lately! haha.and yeah, people who aren't suppose to worry bout me/scared if thats the word.like dearest taha-hahaha! no worries dear.
like really

"don't worry, be happy...cos every lil thing's...gonna be alright!"- bob marley!

help me find myself like how i found you

2009-08-26T15:08:00.004+08:00

at last!
back at home(:

was a shopping spree day out with mum and aunt!left home at 930 am! imagine~ hahaha.obviously first stop for the old ma'am's - Geylang-___- cos our houses are running dry on dates already.haha! and the initial plan of me not getting a pair of new baju kurung was thought over! hahahaha.so i got for myself a white kebaya nyonya(: its like a first for me! so excited.hahaha.bought for my brother, 4!!!!!! new baju's.imagine...4! crazy la my mum-__- went to get the Roman blind.you know that curtain but not curtain?they call it blind! hahahaha.prolly cos it blinds you from the sun(: that's my theoretical explanation! haha.ordered new furniture's apparently mum's into dark wood.so ALL will be dark wood =,=" and we'll be expecting it by the 3rd week of the fasting month...and my mum! this part ah, she damn annoying...at the furniture store, the guy who was working seemed cute i got to agree and she was like, " later when he ask to put number and name you put yours" rolls eyes, she with the freaking smirk and playing eyes at his direction-..- aiyo this old lady still gatal! hahaha.after following my aunt to get my guy cousin's their baju's, we cabbed down to Parkway parade to get my heels.and this year, its a record, i'm putting on a fuck-me heel.and an estimation how high it is, just point out your middle finger.haha! and it has a platform too(: so i'm super tall this year(: and oh atiq! its the one we tried on that day at Charles and Keith! hahaha.and there was this very nice lady who told me to use her discount card, aww....so nice i know! haha.and when i got the heels, my aunt made a pretty accurate prediction that my partner's taller than me! hahahahahah.still, its not as if i want to go out with him.haha!(i'm so mean i know!but i still love you dear!*bullshit!*) hahahahahaaahhah.after getting my heels, went up to Giant to shop for groceries.

and so! that was my itenary for my first half of the day!
superrrrrrrrrrrrrrr tired.
looking forward to Saturday's outing with mum and brother!
YAY(:

birthday dedication

2009-08-25T11:23:00.002+08:00

i would like to wish my dearest most beloved brother a...

HAPPY 24TH BIRTHDAY!

You Are A Gift

Some people give the gift
of peace and tranquility
to every life they touch.
They are always who they really are.
They are blessedly reliable,
dependably good,
predictably pleasant,
loved and treasured
by all who know them.
You are one of those people.
You are a gift
of peace and tranquility
in my life. Happy Birthday!

By Joanna Fuchs

reflectionxsxsx

2009-08-23T18:42:00.003+08:00

i'm gonna add another post for the day.
just killing time till dusk.haha! & so, i love reflecting on my own life.and i do that pretty often(:
good or bad, happy or sad!

lets roll the dice.
Education;

i'm pretty glad that we(mum, brother, sister and i) weren't being irrational in deciding for my education path after screwing them up.from private diploma's to entering the ite.retaking my core subjects this year, once again has seriously made me think over and over again.what the fuck was i doing last year? was it hard? no.so what was IT that stopped me from scoring at least a pass? tsk.nonetheless, in this new institution i've met great friends from different walks of life.people that i NEVER thought i would ever click with.they bring a whole new aura when you're with them(: we often have similar opinions,similar thoughts etc.just very very nice bunch of people.

Friends;

this topic will without fail appear sensitive.but i guess this time round i'm out with no grudge.on anyone!(oviation)for as much as it hurts to swallow that bitter truth of what had happened, i try my very best to look at the brigther side of our once close friendship and it seemed too nice for me to throw those memories away. i do have my peak periods whereby i'll just roll my eyes on you and just wish we never met each other but that's like something weird to wish for cos it HAS happened.sigh! if only if only...oh well i'm sure God has got his reasons on why he created each and everyone of us distinctively unique.

Love;

i THANK GOD! that finally its you.its not like i'm certain you'll be the last.cos nobody knows what comes ahead of us.but for sure, i'm staying.since when, sec2? you had it on for me.hell yeah thats bloody long! and during that period of time i was on and off with MANY different guys which these toes and fingers aren't sufficient for.(not trying to boast, just trying to show how much of a whore i was)hurting people's feeling like no one's problem.that side of me, i hope has vanished.and i am glad too that we're going beyond bff now.if it would've been then, i'll end up hurting you.for sure! now with a much more mature mind of mine.(which my sister aparently agreed to )and a self-proclaimed statement of being even more mature than i am.i'm sure we'll be able to work somethings up(:

sunday morning

2009-08-23T12:43:00.003+08:00

hello all(:

i sorta just got back from religious class.i was dead sleepy and at a "lighter note",the button that hooks my pants up fell off(: pretty ironical cos i should be loosing weight as its the fasting month, but sadly otherwise): haha! but to think again, the button felt like it was gonna fall off anyway...so, not fully pledged guilty! haha.going off to Ikea with the mother.gonna get frames like lots of them of different colours and ya...what else?thats it i think.haha!i don't really have much to talk/blog about cos its the fasting month and i'm not left with much activities to do or more like i choose not to do or i'll be dead by dusk.OH! yes yesterday!(:

on the day of phizie's bday, my mum got locked up in her master bedroom toilet.thats already a drop dead funny incident.and yesterday, she was locked out of her room.it really like shcoked all of us la cos her door has no auto lock as compared to mine which will just automatically lock once closed.so hers closed on its own and was locked(: haha! my brother, once again just got up from his night shift sleep tried to figure something out.haha!(which seemed more like he was sleep walking/talking) hahahahaha!took a screwdriver and a hammer.hithithit, hammer got detached.hahahaha! hithithit, screwdriver looses its shape.he then wanted to put on his soccer boots and kick the door open.hahaha! which thankfully he didn't.he even got me to google on ways to "breakthru" a locked door.haha! which i did as told.after a few minutes of using a crowbar-ish kinda tool, the door opened(ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!at last) it was a relief to put a stop to my mum's paranoia.tsk!

how bout an oh! so cliche post?

2009-08-22T16:27:00.002+08:00

ohmy, i'm missing you bad la! )): like really really gazillion times bad!
i just like met you yesterday and like...its not enough?! like really really gazillion times not enough!
oh i just got a text and it reads" i want to see you". AIYO! i want to see you too.but the distance that separates these two hearts #$%^&*() blahblahblah! just meet up soon ok dick(:
just holla at your pussy!(me) haha!

2009-08-22T13:14:00.002+08:00

sup yawl!

its like the first day of Ramadhan!(: aka fasting month.haha! and i am pretty satisfied with my new blogskin!i was trying to look for the right one since 2am this morning and discovered this decent soul at around 5am after breakfast.i gave science prac a miss cos i just didn't feel like it.prolly cos i needed to cover up on my sleep!-__- excuses i know! promise i'll go for next week's prac ok?(: haha!oh, i've got tuition in 15 minutes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! chiao.

HAPPY FASTING TO ALL THE MUSLIM'S OUT THERE!((:

i already won first place

2009-08-22T01:26:00.003+08:00

dessert or disaster??

hello!
haven't had the time to do up a proper post!so yes, a last minute update!:D

today;
went for school.Raden wasn't feeling well so Omar was the only guy today as Ayie was off fishing! hahaha-___- cabbed back and Aunt Ema and Farid was over at my place(followed by two more elder aunties).To visit master Yoda(granny!) haha! ever since she got back from the dentist yesterday, i'm officially her denture puller.(: sounds 'awesome' i know.haha!so yeah, had some 'muay thai' or so session with Farid but sadly all he could aim for was my brother's nuts!kids nowadays.early exposure.tsk! met taha for awhile before he left for HAHAHA tuition.i guess its undeniably true that the education system in Singapore is getting way off hand, even a poly student like Taha needs tuition.haha!went back and took a power to the max nap? ok i shan't regard it as a nap, from 430 to 730? haha.did all the necessaries like flipping thru informative books? haha! went for dinner with Nadiah for awhile and bummed into Jordan and Dan.went back and ' I SO LOVE IT WHEN I'M PLAYING MY SIMS AND IT HANGS ON ME-__-' hahahah.restart the system, did more math! i've yet to complete they PHY tys.bullshitte! yanyan is gonna come tomorrow for phy.sigh! die liao, die.heh!

news spread really fast.
almost everyone knows i'm going out with Taha.
good bloggy.haha!
;D

thanks for the pics irni(:

2009-08-21T13:20:00.003+08:00

heeeeeeeeeliiiiiiiium

2009-08-20T16:14:00.006+08:00

check out this vid people!
yes its me and the helium balloon! hahahahahaha,
i sound worse than atiq! hahahaha.and i realised that i used the word awesome like at least once in each sentence!-__- hahahaaha! its a thank you video(:

i THINK i got like high/lost with it for awhile.hahahah!

mas que nada!

2009-08-20T00:51:00.003+08:00

i've got no idea what 'mas que nada' means! hahaha.
had tuition at 230 till 430(: met up with atiq and others at Starbucks tamp!
AND i got like the ice-cream mochi's! its super orgasmic.but kinda too sweet for me! haha
sadly,both of us weren't at our tip top conditions but hell no that doesn't stop these itchy hands and legs from shopping! went to Tamp one to get a pair of black flipflops for me.been looking for one ever since i don't have one! haha.and atiq got herself a 3/4 cargo pants from Dorothy Perkins.i think i need to start shopping online.i wanna get cheap cheap printed leggings of ALL kinds.cos a major problem i've got is that i'm growing out of my dresses/tops): i hate being tall!(well not always!) haha.
oh! and fasting month is just round the corner! this Saturday.but i doubt i'll be able to cover the first few days):

i think i'm gonna turn in now.
its 1 AM already.not my usual timing, but guess i need it.
GOODNIGHT READERS.

2009-08-19T21:10:00.002+08:00

as mentioned earlier;

Yellow-Coldplay

Part of the list-Neyo

White Flag-Dido

2009-08-19T12:56:00.002+08:00

hello!:D
i woke up only to feel my muscles aching(chey!) and sore throat.
i guess the karaoke session with atiq yesterday really took its toll on me ):
super spicy food + loud karaoke-ing session = bad bad sore throat!
STILL, i did like 2 covers of my favourite hits.
Yellow-Coldplay
Part Of The List- Neyo
pardon my super ewwwish face! haven't bathe.just brushed my teeth! hahahaha
& the hahahahahha.not so sexy voice! hahaha.
but i'll post it LATER!

2009-08-19T01:10:00.003+08:00

Time: 12:56 am

Current mood: Psyched

Blog title: So Amazin’ !

How bout a post for my el-oh-vee-ee?(: lol! Ok this is super freaking bloody random.

I just feel like it, that’s basically why! Haha.&!; I’d like to take this opportunity to thank you very very much from the bottom of my heart for ALL the happiness and joy you’ve added to my life!(: I never realized how close That person was to me. It’s the simplest love ever! No complications.(well prolly not yet) but I wanna reassure you that there’s no reason for you to fear of me taking my leave.i’ve gone thru lots and I mean lots of weird heart cheating relationships and I am super whopper sick and tired of that! Eeeeeeeek! And I can safely state that you’re not that type of guy.not too clingy, sorry to say but you seem kinda possessive, prolly cos ure feeling insecure but please, fear no more! Haha.and ya! I can leave my house w/o makeup knowing that there’s that special someone who loves me for my flaws and all!my overload of vulgar that sadly slips out of my mouth pretty often are pretty much ‘accepted by you’ haha!cos u talk dick too! Yay! Hahahaha.

taha and farhanah sitting on a tree!

k-i-s-s-i-n-g!

hahahahahahahahahahhaha.

so kiddy! i know.i feel like pinching someone now!

like NOW!

i think thats like overload-ly cliche la.

(pukes!) hahaha.how bout....

eyy biatch, you know i like you.and yeah love you too la.

anything just fucking hell call me up.

i'll bloody hell answer your calls.

like really, just suck on that!

(suck on what?!)

your mum's punani's .

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!

now thats what i call love on a WHOLE different level.

unique much!

2009-08-18T12:15:00.000+08:00

mood;??????????!!!!! whatta!!!!!!!!!!! -..-

sarang heyo taha(:
XOXO

2009-08-17T15:54:00.010+08:00

ENJOY!!!!! (:

2009-08-17T00:35:00.002+08:00

today's the most awesome day so far!:D

woke up at 9 and got ready to leave for Novena@ Velocity for the netballuxion! it was fun playing once again with the usual's.namely,natasha chua, amanda lim,christel(omgosh i don't know her surname, is it chia?)&& caroline chee!i think we took pretty awhile to warm ourselves up.our last game was a bomb! we lost, won and drew!last game was at 3 after that i dashed back home as i had a movie date with dearest rai(well supposedly!)

had to be at marina by 5! imagine from Novena back to Bedok then back to City Hall-..- haha! thankfully i made it on time.no cabby fares ok! except for one to Tanah merah cos it was hot(: haha!still, an accomplishment! lol.

Supposed to meet Rai at Macs and i was earlier.shocking/irritating or what?! hahahahaa!anyways, i thought we were meeting there to grab a bite cos i was dead hungry! like super rabak.but then she came with her super slumber and like not at fault face, hahaha! made me FULL! the movie we were gonna watch, UP 3D was on at 6 so we had like one hour or so to eat.or so i thought! haha.she wanted me to check out this tennis thingy at the rooftop level area, so i went.i didn't even know that place existed.haha!so yeah, went!walked like pretty far, beyond the tennis place and there i saw i head popping out.hmms, looked familiar.and fair enough, it was Idham!rai's boyfriend.with a HAPPY BIRTHDAY balloon.when i saw that i was shrieking my ass already.and so i realised it was a whole crowd kinda suprise! hahaha.their heads one by one appeared from the drainish looking space.they looked like those crocodiles you would hit with the hammer.haha!IDHAM,RAIHANAH,NUR ATIQAH, SYED TAHA,JORDAN EZRA SAMUEL,RADEN ALIF AND ISA ISKANDAR! hahahahahahahahaha.it was the perfect suprise ever! hahahahahahah.the closest kins i would prolly wanna ever celebrate my birthdays with.haha! sadly, nadiah wasn't there.and maz? haha!sobs.! nonetheless, the suprise was AWESOME.the cake? ORGASMIC.rai odered it online from 7thmanna.com! branch at 365 Tanjong Katong Road!(: not too sweet!pure Belgian choc.yums!and the huge helium punching bag like balloon! just SWEET! and the movie date was for all 8 of us! fun or what! UP 3D together.haha! i'll elaborate on the white lies below.tsktsk!it was a nice movie(: haha! oh! and thanks SYAKEER for boooking the tix for us online.and you weren't there too): haha! after the movie went to Clarke Quay and sheesha-ed? haha! that was our last stop.IMAGINE, for two sheesha's and 4 soft drinks, and Heneiken for Jordan costs a whopping 78 bucks! bullshit man.like totally! at least Rai got for herself a souvenier.haha! the thingy where they return you your change/cards? hah! cool shitte.

trained back(: at reached Tanah Merah at around 11:05? haha! walked back with Syed Taha and Jordan.whats the use of a fag with no lighter O.o haha! went back to Jo's area and lighted em.sat for 10 mins or so before Syed Taha send me home.hahaha! and while waiting for the lift, both of us were drenched with sweat! hahahhaha.HOT LA!esp him, wa liaoey.like pipe flowing sia.and all he's been saying was, "too bad you've got to live with it" like its not i don't want to.but we can't): i don't wanna talk about it now...prolly in many years to come.sigh!...

thy white lies -..-

rai:"i'm calling my bf back cos i need to tell him its a girl's day out kinda thing"(was actually informing that we're coming up)
me:"eh, take taha's number eh..plan for me a bday!" rai:"aiyah, no need la"(she had it already)
taha"ok talk to you later, i'm gonna play soccer now, have fun"(was at the place preparing for the suprise!)
taha and jordan:"eeeeee! don't want to watch UP la.super crappy!"(cos we were gonna watch it already!)

all in all,

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THOSE WHO TOOK THE TIME TO PLAN,BE THERE AND EVERYTHING ELSE.
THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH.
NO WORDS CAN DESCRIBE HOW HAPPY I AM RIGHT NOW.
YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST.

*pictures from rai and the others*

2009-08-15T23:49:00.004+08:00

neighbour called me!hahaha
same type as my crrrrush(hahaha!), but thankfully not the pure breed
and i'm glad he shared with me all the pro's and cons.
ok well mainly con's ): i'm upset.
my crush has got to have the balls!to clearly state to his parents that i am a good malay girl.but then they'll treat it like i'm not there and and and they'll hate him and me.imagine living in a life filled with hatred! omgosh, i sense karma.what my mum did to my brother in law! i'm gonna get it! OMGOSHHHHHHH.i'm gonna be a sadistic soul man! omgoshhhhh.but i don't wanna fall out of this ever!and neighbour particularly highlighted that HIS family is super freaking particular)): WHATS WRONG WITH BEING A FREAKING MALAY?ugh.

I AM GOING TO STOP SMOKING! I AM GOING TO STOP SMOKING!I AM GOING TO STOP SMOKING! I AM GOING TO STOP SMOKING!I AM GOING TO STOP SMOKING! I AM GOING TO STOP SMOKING!

oh God its gonna be irritating/hard whatever! ugh.

2009-08-14T13:21:00.003+08:00

i hate it when my mum's not on my side):
i tell her almost everything, and so i told her about him.
she was like telling me how complicated it'll be cos i ever dated his cousin blahblahblah.
and that i will be put aside and not like looked upon by them.
cos his group being those 'coloured' kinda people.
basically she's certain that i'll get hurt sooner or later once his family finds out?
which won't be soon.but yeah.they only want pure breed!
oh my! i hate this.fickle much?
no! but i like him and that's final.
we'll just see how it goes(:

2009-08-14T08:22:00.003+08:00

i hope everything's fine.his dad just received the NEA letter(again?)last night. tsk! he was caught for flicking his cigarette after school.before going over that TP bridge.oh my!

just got back from my sister's place.and atiq, you do know that my sister's under your friends list right?on facebook? hahahah! AWESOME STATUS MAN YESTERDAY.hahahahaha!i was like wondering how she knew it la.anyways, she didn't really make a big deal out of it.thank God! met up with Raz and Atiq at T3 macs.chitty-chatty.went to swensens for the one for one deal(ice cream) tried to tie the cherry's thingy with my tongue and i managed to somehow do it.except that i sorta tore one of the ends? hahaha! and the myth states that if someone can tie a knot with her tongue means you're a good kisser.so i think i'm much of a brutal kisser! you know those who dive in and leave the partner bleeding at the mouth? HAHA!(i'm not ok!)

2009-08-13T15:23:00.002+08:00

i've been getting this super major tummy cramps?aches? and i suspect that its got something to do with me holding back myself from peeing.not that i don't want to, but ya'know when i'm playing Sims, i just can't be bothered(: and yeah, last night i had the urge to pee but then after like half an hour or so, i just didn't feel like it and it was replaced by a major tummy ache.from last night till this afternoon, it hurts real bad! tried asking my mum and she said prolly and yeah, just told me to drink lots of warm water.i'm scareeeed! cos it hurts.and the pain is just like at the bottom left hand side of my tummy!like there's a tractor digging some hole or something! hahahhaahahahha.

and when i told him i was having a tummy ache he send me this in reply,
"i'll get your medicine when your tummy aches.."
and yes, thats from i wanna grow old with you by Adam Sandler(: haha!i never ever had a thought that he could get THAT sweet! haha.sugar coated honey bum-like sweet!and if the pain still lingers, i'm supposed to see the doctor-..- hahaha.and last night i was totally in a daze watching The Bachelor,as usual, and i asked him, "are you like a prince by any chance? cos i wanna have a fairytale dream come true!" hahahaha(i know like wtf farhanah!) then he replied, " ya, it slipped my mind to tell you that i am a prince.Tomorrow what time you finish?i'll come pick you up in my multi billion dollar private flying carpet." HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! and best it comes with a pilot-___- tsktsk!

i neeeeeeeeeed to start flipping some pages!
tata!:D

2009-08-13T00:03:00.002+08:00

&so updates with my confession!(:
thank God everything's going on smoothly, no awkwardness...yet?
haha!will only be going out with him during his study break.so that means byebye to watching Up 3D with him.on a lighter note, i'll be watching it with Raihanah! yay.this Sunday after netball will be out with her!!!

*i feel like a noob in this thingy!*

if tomorrow never comes,
will he know how much i love him?

a self record!

2009-08-12T14:10:00.002+08:00

&& so i've made my confession(: hahahah!
its really not that bad..prolly cos i did it virtually and not upfront!(ya i got no guts)
anyways anyhows...when he replied to my text like half an hour after that
i swear i didn't dare to open it at all! until he send me another text like 5 minutes after sending me the first one;

and it reads

_ _ _ _
"ure serious?"

_ _ _ _
"you there?"

and blahblahblah(:
you guys don't really need to know! haha

HAPPY

confessions

2009-08-12T01:33:00.004+08:00

i want to leave my house w/o make up knowing that he loves me as i am
i want him to accept my flaws and all(oh! so cliche)
i want to have a faithful relationship, no more screw-ups
i'm sick and tired of "passer by lovers", i need long lasting!
i need to figure out from scratch, how confessing happens!
i'm once bitten twice shy, don't think i can face anymore rejections.
once is enough! like really.ugh! but i've got to make an effort.i really do, he needs to know...
even if its not gonna make any difference):

so basically all i have to do is to put up a hard front.
say it...
_ _ _ _, i have something to tell you.
i'm sure and certain that i have the flames going on for you
and yes, this is my first ever attempt, confessing it to someone=,=
and yeah, i like you.urmmmmmmmmmm...
i don't really know how this is suppose to go, i'm really not a pro!(hey it rhymes)
yupp, just thought you needed to know.and i hope this won't spur any awkwardness between us.
just being true to my feelings! i hope its well sorted out.

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

2009-08-11T14:11:00.003+08:00

hello!i think i forgot to blog bout friday night!
it simply spelt awesome! a happening night indeed(:

anyways, after school trained down to Penin to get a capo for myself.
and Raden needed to get strings for his electric guitar!
got home and was super psyched to try out songs with my capo!
so the first one i tried it out with was, I'm like a bird- Nelly Furtado.
all time favourite! don't mind the mistakes.my fingers were hurting by then!
(and i was going on 'flash's speed*)
):

i'm staying home!to study.
&&; i can't wait to meet up with dee, manda,natty,chrissy and line for netball on Sunday!
and here's a cool fact, our team name is , TEAM-___- HAHAHAH!

burrrrp!

2009-08-10T19:37:00.002+08:00

i hereby declare that i despise people with

an attitude no problem face
a hotstuff wannabe
a hotstuff wannabe
a hotstuff wannabe
a hotstuff wannabe
a hotstuff wannabe

its not envious my friends.
the sight is just a plain eyesore.
eeeeeeww!

2009-08-10T18:45:00.001+08:00

ok i soooo need to blog!~
but i'm feeling extra lazy nowadays..plus! i'm super hungry.
i think i'll go down and grab dinner first.
i'm superrrrrr hungry!

whats your name?

2009-08-06T18:35:00.003+08:00

hello maple-applecrrrumblers(:
i just finished doing the tasks my mum ordered me.like amazing! i feel like an angel, well not that i'm not.but yeah! hahaha.i'm like deciding between doing my phy homework or math revision oh yes, or math homework.im such a procrastinator-___-up till this stage.sighs!omgosh why am i sweating? tsk.later tonight am gonna head down to my sister's place and do some baking! she better be awesome as always la,but yeah...its not just for me to eat, but for thy crowd(: i did some trials on the fonts(: and i think i've sorta decided on what to use! yay...i'm waiting for Raden to pass me the pics cos my blog is seriously lacking of pictures): main reason why i'm not such a camwhore nowadays is i am getting from ugly to fugly.ugly may seem pretty harsh, but i really think i'm not that awesome.i'm just a typical looking malay girl with some weird accent going on-__- i really try my best to make it sound like Singapore english, but you should listen to my cousins and sister talk, they're like way ott!so i'm pretty average~! (: haha.

can't wait for tomorrow's party la like omgoshhhh!
i miss miss miss you girls.
since its phizie's 18th, lets smoke weed and stuff vibrators in each other's pussy!
jyeah! sounds like a fcking plan.

typical!-__-

personal favourite

2009-08-06T01:26:00.003+08:00

easier said, easier than done

just watched The Bachelor.
prince Lorenzo as always, an eye candy...
and the part where he made out with Sadie was a total bomb! you could see how passionate they were, the sparks or whatever!and when i saw that part, i totally went bonkers.reason being, i've been single for awhile now and its killing me deep down inside.i too wanna make out like Sadie and Lorenzo ok!but still, neither do i wanna force myself into something that's of a much more serious situation.but it was like super awesome!currently, my lips are chapped for a reason(: haha!they say, "people change for the better" but when change has arrived,nothing happens?is that the answer to the riddle?damn! life can be a bitch.anyways anyhows, no rush please.i don't wanna end up 'scaring' guys from getting to know me.and so i've just realised that i'm quite a scare.not physically ok!i've seen worse(: haha.

say it isn't so, how she easily some,she easy go.

2009-08-05T00:52:00.002+08:00

i'm loving this song la!it just seems so perfect(: - its an old hit btw
as in the tune, the lyrics.like butter spread on bread!yums*
just had my daily doze of sims, and im shagged! can't wait to cuddle up with my mum.
oh yeah, she had a blackout this morning,sudden drop in blood pressure i guess.tsktsk!
i was dead asleep and i didn't even remember my brother waking me up to look on her-__-
how awesome of a daughter i am! haha!oh yes, i remembered that i was making a turn and i hit the wall on my right.like super turn and super pain la! i semi opened my eyes and rubbed my head and i could laugh somemore, after that back to sleep! hahaha.classic!(: someway or another, gfs and i can't seem to wait for Friday,its like a break off from hectic schedules and bonding time!that motormouth BETTER not be there.or she's just asking for hell on earth,chey! haha.

i hear she's kickin ass across the board
And rock two hundred thousand higher scorer
Just in time to save the world of being taken over
she's a warrior
i couldn't play again because the game it never ended
It never even landed on the can
And never let me in to spend my quarter
there's no love for me no more

say it isn't so
how she easily come, and she easy go
please don't tell her that i've miss her
because i don't

she was the girl with the broadest shoulders
But she would die before i crawled over them
she is taller than i am 
she knew i wouldn't mind the view there
or the altitude with a mouth full of air
she let me down and doubt came out until the now became later

say that it isn't so
how she easily come, how she easy go
please don't tell her that i've been meaning to miss her
because i don't, not for her
its not that i meant to forgive, forget what i said

that i'm crazy like the rest of us 
and i'm crazier when i'm next to her 

so why after the all of everything that came and went
I care enough to still be singing of the bitter end and broken eras
i told you i don't but
i am only trying to be the best with my attempt 
To cure the rest is sure to lay me ease 
The plural hurts of the words of reverse psychology
that's easier said
easier than done
please don't dare tell her what i've become
please don't mention all the attention i have drawn
please don't bother cause she'll feel guilty when i'm gone

because i'm crazy like the rest of us
and i'm crazier when i'm next to her
and it's amazing how she's so self-assured
but i know she'd hate me if she knew my words
do i hurt anymore
do i hurt, well
i don't
i don't


i don't

i like em big!

2009-08-04T22:39:00.003+08:00

i so have to blog bout today(:

so i had lessons, just a short one.went back had tuition like as soon as i got back-__- after she left i felt like doing many things.get my nails done,go out shop for necessities and etc and so i decided why not combine everything on my 'to-do-list'.so i went to get my nails a lil altered, then bused down to siglap Starbucks to meet up with atiq,it was supposed to be a short one cos she was gonna meet up with her girlfriends, but instead it was called off so she had the whole day with me and Nadiah whom we met at Parkway soon after.went for a so called dinner, i was dead hungry to be honest, but when the food was there, served, suddenly didn't get the feel of doing so:/ weirddd!anyways, went to Giant to look for friday's stuff but i kept on insisting to go to Cold storage instead cos its more English(: hah!i've got my reason for that."to get them you have be like them" hahaha!get my drift? if you don't, go figure bitchass!(:after cold storage went to Prints! and this is the weird part.

entered the store.cute Philippine looking guy on duty.he is veryy cute! and so blahblahblah, after we purchased our ribbons what not, he was gonna pass me my stuff,suddenly he said"sorry but we're out of smaller plastic bags"spontaneously i responded"its ok, i like it big" HAHAHAHAH!he had that cheeky rabak smile and he sorta figured it out after a few seconds(: hahaha!and and! he said 'bye' to me! like omg whatever, super whatever! hahahahahaha.Aman was with us too btw after dinner.and with that i had my first ride on a scrambler back home(: IT WAS SUPER EXCITING YET SCARY, NON STOP HITS OF PRAYERS MAN.had my fingers and life crossed.hahahaha!

x-fi?

2009-08-03T22:22:00.004+08:00

&so i was in my room playing my sims(: as usual.then my brother came in and told me to go to the creative website.what for?i had no idea.and since he said a replacement for my super awesome phone will only happen next year i didn't bother asking for it for my birthday!~haha.so on the site, he told me to check out creative x-fi.he said he saw it on the news.so yeah,it LOOKS like the previous editions of zen's.but apparently not.he said"ok, no phone this year, i buy for you this one k?" i said i want an ipod touch cos yanyan has it): and i made the dog face! lol.he said, "aiyah, ipod very troublesome must change to itunes(or something like that), creative better" i stared blankly.i was like so whatever cos it was gonna be a gift from him anyway.too bad the hamsters he offered we old and dying soon! hahaha.

p/s: sorry raden for not calling you up to inform you i'm not coming down.i fell asleep! haha.

the baby in my tummy is craving for....

2009-08-02T18:05:00.002+08:00

hello!(: i'm craving i'm craving for nasi ayam penyet!and i want to eat it now! like now! right this moment.is it too much too ask for?!): hahaha.okay i'm gonna get jordan to accompany me,no bf mahh!irritating fact liao.haha! whatever la farhanah seriously.i just had tuition(: yanyan went off with her gf to Hong Kong for 5 freaking days after o's! and she just got back from Genting with another gf for 3 days!awesome or what!i told her my mum won't ever like let me la,but she was saying something like, if i study hard and prove if to her i can do it, she'll confirm let you.so yeah, told my mum and she was like,"ya ya ya, you use alot of my money for daily tuition and school,no more money for you" i then gave her the dog face,as usual...she said," see how!" hahaha.if so i'll either bring nadiah or atiq.cannot bring together.later clash of opinions, i'll be stuck in the middle-__-

what tha!

2009-08-02T11:34:00.003+08:00

ogay(: i miss my orgasmic blog(not!) there has been many many happenings lately!and they're happy happenings! like totally!!!!!!

Thursday;
had tuition as usual blahblahblah(i'm trying to recall!)then met up with Nadiah for some fags.then my sister called me up and asking if i wanted to sleep over her place so i thought why not, called up rai and she agreed to do so too(: she went shopping(coughs) with her boyfriend earlier that day at town and got like super awesome posumsxs stuff!(i'm jealous) anyways, had a so called early night and the next morning both of us left and headed back to my place.

Friday;
after i got back from school and left my BIG baby back at my place, we decided to bake and give it a shot! you don't want it to end up disastrous do you? hahahaha.LUCKILY we tried ya know, cos my mum said we should've left the cake after its bake in the tray to cool.and what we thought was to flip it over and let it cool off that way-__- silly us! hahahaha.so yeah, the cake kinda like had a crack): !its super fluffy la like really, and to begin with the smell of it made us salivate already! yes, its that awesome.furthermore it tasted ORGASMIC.but i don't think i'm a #1 fan of it cos i'm not a sweet taker.hahaha! and and our granny thinks it tasted awesome too! hope it wasn't a suck up! hahaha!yeah, after that we decided to take our naps and yeah, knowing me, i would just turn off the alarm when it rang and rai left for tuition almost not saying bye-bye to me ): so meannnn! anyways yeah, went down to meet the guys at night to have some twenty minutes or so of soccer! haha.my thigh still hurts):

Saturday;
had science practical in the morning!i had that sexist teacher.the way he talks, very irritating! hahaha, still, must respect him cos he is my teacher(; hahah!whatever gitu loe! after lesson, Raden and me dashed down to Tampines cos we were gonna catch a movie at 230 with the other guys, Zahin,Jordan and Yusuf(: THE HANGOVER. it was a half an hour arrival! Got in and to me/us the movie was super funny!lots of dialogues but it super made sense each and every single one of them!i'm certain that Yusuf choked on popcorn at least 70% thru out the whole movie! hahahahah.went for dinner/lunch and then i bused home with Jordan.thought i was late cos my mum wanted to go to the mosque and i was suppose to tag along! so yeah, luckily she wanted to leave before 8.i reached home at around 6(: went for the talk at the mosque and got back at 11pm.super whopper alamak rabak tired.hmms....

*pictures soon ogay!*

fall for you(: who?

2009-07-29T23:08:00.005+08:00

hello all! its been awhile.yes yes its been awhile(:
i'm back with a cover of fall for you by Secondhand Serenade.
hope you guys like it, love it,hate it whatever, just enjoy it!(copyright rinontherox)

its not that amazing(well it has never been!) but yeah,got kinda out of breath at parts

itchy.

2009-07-28T02:17:00.001+08:00

2:33:18 go figure
i think its a record!:D

2009-07-27T18:03:00.002+08:00

just finished watching Wild Child like for the gazillionth time!i am a total sucker for adventure/brainy movies, so i guess i'll just stick with chick flick that requires way less thinking!hahaha.once again ,ALEX PETTYFER is bloody hot(British ascent!)wonder if they have any duplicates like him around?i say no! hahaha.got back from school like asap and now i'm learning how to play Bubbly by Colbie Cailat.i really have nothing else to blog about!lalala.

ok bye!

glittery pink awesomely bling!

2009-07-25T21:44:00.002+08:00

omgosh Saturday's coming to an end! super fast): the world is coming to an end! oh noooooo...

ok that was totally a redundant phrase! i accompanied Nadiah to parkway earlier this morning to get some stuff printed and i got this very very cute pink stripey neon coloured bag! major sales around!went for lunch and i got my classic manicure(: super in love with it!its like way better than my stinky toes!BUT SADLY,i've got to remove them cos i've got religious class tomorrow morning! i know like how much more pathetic can it get?! damn.but i was thinking since there's a cheap mani and pedi place nearby, i'll go and get them done again tomorrow.prolly just an express manicure cos when i go to school i've got to wear shoes most of the time,so! beats the whole purpose of getting em done!i think i'm gonna like get the same kinda texture/shade?prolly in red this time round! red is just super juicy la.seductive,loud,alluring! SEXXXAY.hahahaha.

dear online-diary(:
i am glad i've found a good friend like him(that would prolly/hopefully lead to something more intense)-i'll update you people on that as always!hopefully it turns out well*fingers/joints crossed*

my humps.my humps my humps my humps, my flat flat lady bums.check it out!

2009-07-24T20:28:00.003+08:00

hello!(: its fry-day-day-day

i just got back from dinner with Jordan, Uncle and Ashvin.had a bumpy ass sucking ride on Jordan's bike! super painful man.and inevitably, he commented on my weight-..- like gello! i know i am gaining weight! so i stood la, my feet freaking hell hurts now.cos ya know my whole body weight is being focused on that small surface area.ugh! anyways anyhows, thanks for the ride Jo.and Ashvin for sending me back(: and oh! i did classic pedicure after school today and it freaking hell sucks.she is so not well trained and ya, i wasted my buckaroos just like that!the lady has an attitude no problem face and speaking in a language i'm unaware of.never ever ever ever gonna enter that place again! please remind me next time if i'm ever gonna think of having a pedi.

ok i wanna sims(:
tata!

people and their insecurities

2009-07-22T23:16:00.005+08:00

Hello!:D
had a fun fun fun day-
started off with math tuition early in the morning-___- wasn't bad.tuition has never never been bad! haha.was bored so i did covers for Everybody's changing by Keane!its an awesome song.hah, and so i've just realised.shall post the videos after this.called up Yusuf to make him listen to my cover, quote unquote, "on tour" from Taha.haha! so yeah.he was at Raden's place.pissed they didn't ask me along,i made my way down.hahaha! made covers and Raden's webcam is super cool with super cool features.haha! had fun la basically.then rai called me up and asked if i had fags, i guess lady luck was on her side, haha cabbed down to mac's first to grab our dinner(for me) and breakfast or so for her before heading down to Kew Gate.waited for rai's bf to be done with tutoring our nieces.i went back home like after eating to grab the stuff needed for a quick dip."sadly" luqman wasn't with us(makes dog face) HAHA! anyway yeah, we had super lots of incidents to crack our 'sexy' tummies with.hahah!rai's tummy is SO sexy i can imagine her pregnant(and married) hahaha!and just a fun fact i can hold my breth underwater for like, 74 seconds! hahahaha.awesome-ness i know! hahaha.once idham was done,walked out quarter way till we saw a cab to get us out(: so yeah.it was an abrupt and super unplanned,still! loved it!

this is the super cool one, sorry if its a lil too soft.turn it on to full blast its still not loud(:

did this back at home after my brother got back(:

don't forget

2009-07-21T15:36:00.003+08:00

i'm gonna make a mini declaration(:
i loveeee demi lovato's songs! haha..

ogay! where should i start!!!!

can't wait for fasting month
AND GUESS WHAT! 97 MORE DAYS OR SO TO MY RETAKE.hahaha! yay:D
5 more months to getaway with nadiah and rai-na!
5 more months to 2010(ok thats super fast and so didn't have to take note off!)
Bj's(bopeh junior) coming soon.still thinking if i want it for bday or end of this week.

hello!

2009-07-20T12:48:00.002+08:00

im at school now.was late for like half an hour thinking that it starts at 11-__- hahaha.i've got lots of work to do now like seriously.not bragging!its called sharing my thoughts.hahahaha.jia you people, those taking o's for the first time and once again(: hahaha.

love you all...
and freshbox!, hands down...
I WIN sucka! ^^

2009-07-19T20:19:00.003+08:00

JUST FUCK OFF EVERYBODY! REBELLIOUS SOUL REACHING IN 4 MONTHS.*tit tit titi tit*current status:Mars

freshbox demands attention(:

2009-07-19T12:57:00.002+08:00

i try my best to ignore, but i guess the huge ego in me is way too overwhelming!

dearest freshbox.
i do not know who the f you are.neither do i wanna know who the f you are.you read my blog,at your own will.you visit my page for God knows why the f you do.you spam my board for hell knows why!i do not see how you could mention my father's death as if its something so humiliating and sorta,"you deserved it' kinda thing!i am totally disgusted by your low standard of moral.and since you mentioned about my dad guess what, i think YOUR FREAKING GODDAMN PARENTS DO NOT KNOW HOW TO FHELL BRING YOU UP AND TEACH YOU FROM WHAT IS RIGHT AND WHAT IS WRONG.everyone will face death, everyone will die.no escape to that.AND IT IS BY ACTUAL FACT STATED AND PROVEN THAT WHEN EACH AND EVERY CREATION DIES,IT ROTS.(unless God protects it from so)EVEN YOUR GODDAMN BODY YOU SON/DAUGHTER OF A HOE.AND TO BE PRECISE YOUR BLOODY PUSSY/DICK.YES, IT'LL BE JUST LIKE MY DAD'S.I DO NOT SEE WHY, YOU HAD TO DRAG MY LATE DAD'S(dick) INTO THE FUCKING STORY.IF YOU F HELL HAVE A F PROBLEM WITH ME, SAY IT.MENTION IT.SHOUT IT OUT LIKE WHAT YOU'RE DOING.AND I STILL DO NOT GET THE FUCKING POINT WHY PEOPLE DO NOT USE THEIR OWN F NAME WHEN THEY'RE OUT TO INSULT,DEMORALIZE OR ANYTHING AS SUCH.but i guess at the end of the day its all about the confidence!face it! you are fhell not confident enough in FIRST spamming my board and SECOND cos you're just a pushball in reality. just continue being in disguise.don't bother coming by my page ever again.like really don't.OVER MY DAD'S ROTTEN DICK WILL I EVER WANT TO SEE YOU TAG MY BOARD.
buzz off you cunt~!

fairytales

2009-07-17T00:13:00.009+08:00

o-gay!just a short update(well hope it'll be)

i am a die hard fan of the bachelor.and sadly, Singapore's currently showing only the 9th season.yes pretty slow.anyways anyhows...this season is a damn fairytale to begin with.a prince in search of a princess? that would typically come out from a book but lo and behold! its happening in Rome! the place where romance was given birth(quote unquote, the bachelor) so just a lil sidetrack on his life.he's a part of the Borghese family and that's basically the family of the royalties there and voila, "i hereby crown you Prince Lorenzo Borghese"(his name is already so orgasmic!) his family moved to states and he basically lived his whole life there.i can sorta conclude that he's pretty down to earth for a prince.

AND SO, he's the bachelor for the 9th season.25 awesome ladies.and cut shorrrrrrrrrrrt! down to two beautiful ladies.(well okay okay la, i think Sadie's cute!)

Jennifer Wilson

Sadie Murray

i'm not gonna mention anything bout Jen cos i don't like her-..-" and Sadie, yes she is still a #&* virgin.awesome! yes very much.she plans to keep it for marriage and she seemed super cool about it and wasn't perturbed when the others were like sorta making a mockery out of it. awesome or WHAT?!pfft.

taken from ; thehollywoodgossip.com

Lorenzo Borghese Blows it On Bachelor Finale

Posted on November 28th, 2006 11:07 AM by Free Britney
Filed under: Reality TV, The Bachelor, Lorenzo Borghese

Her princess title will have to wait, but Jennifer Wilson got her prince on The Bachelor.

That's right, Lorenzo Borghese somehow chose ditzy Jen over the far superior Sadie Murray on Monday's two-hour finale.

"I came here for one reason and that was in search for love," the 34-year-old Manhattanite and Italian noble family member told Jennifer as he informed her of his decision during the reality TV show's final rose ceremony. "I didn't want 25 women, I wanted one."

"Oh my god!," the giddy 24-year-old eighth grade teacher from Pembroke PinesFla., replied, as our staff members vowed to stick to Laguna Beach for our reality fix from now on.

However, Lorenzo didn't propose, or even attempt to present his network-supplied engagement ring to Jennifer as a "promise ring." No one needs to get married these days - just ask Brangelina. Instead, he presented the Florida teacher with an offer to leave the "Garden of Eden" and "take it on" with him in New York.

After meeting with both fathers, Lorenzo had his final one-on-one dates with Jennifer (below, left) and Sadie (below, right), setting the stage for the final ceremony in which each woman arrived separately learn of his decision. Sadie arrived first and, following some brief praise of her, Lorenzo cut right to his decision.

"In your wish list, you said 'I want to be with a guy that can't fathom to be with another woman' ... the truth is that there is another woman here and at this point I would rather be with her," Lorenzo told the 23-year-old from San Diego. "I don't know what else to say, Sadie."

Sadie, a classy, spunky, composed and virginal cutie, initially took the news well.

"I'm grateful for everything and thank you, really, thank you... I'm not good but I will be, I'm fine," she said.

But as the conversation continued, Sadie began to get more emotional.

"I just don't know why I did this... I feel so foolish... I thought it was real," Sadie lamented.

IT CLEARLY SHOWS THAT MANY PREFER SADIE OVER JEN-..-

The Bachelor Trades Up: Sadie Murray In, Jennifer Wilson Out as Lorenzo Borghese Comes to His Senses

Posted on January 17th, 2007 5:05 PM by Free Britney
Filed under: The Bachelor, Lorenzo Borghese

Yes, it's true!
US weekly has confirmed that Lorenzo Borghese has given his chosen lady love the proverbial heave-ho - and traded up for the woman he spurned on the season finale of The Bachelor.

The cosmetics heir and dog products entrepreneur (who is of Italian nobility) picked public school teacher teacher Jennifer Wilson over L.A. publicist Sadie Murray (below, right).

"Watching Sadie drive away in the limo was by far the worst moment of this entire journey," a tearful Borghese said during the finale.

Apparently, he came to his senses and never got over saying goodbye to Sadie Murray, a 24-year-old San Diego publicist who is proudly saving herself for marriage.

Despite having given Wilson (below, left) a promise ring on the show's finale, they were said to have parted ways soon after, and a source close to Borghese tells Us Weekly:

"Lorenzo and Jennifer are now on the rocks, and he's gone back to Sadie. They're spending time together. Sadie is moving to new york city where Lorenzo lives, to pursue her career."
unintentionally spilled the beans regarding this scandalous reality TV switcheroo last month. We've been unable to confirm it - until now. Go Sadie!Â

SO YES! GO SADIEEE!:D

fag!

2009-07-16T18:13:00.005+08:00

its been awhile since i last took shots like these(:

hello!hello!:D
ok i miss my baby!lets see,see,see

yesterday-day-day!

woke up like right on time for tuition when yanyan called from under my block.so yes! i did not bathe.just brushed my teeth and washed my face! like wth i know.and my tummy! was like grumbling almost every minute!it was hell of a torture, and if it does make a difference it was math tuition!-__- if only my mum didn't go out with my aunt!(ok i'm being too self reliant on her)anyways yeah, after tuition my mum asked me out to change what she got when she was out with my aunt earlier in the morning!wrong size!-..-(she thought she still had the figure of an hourglass,which by actual fact is loooong gone!)so yeah,ate like alot.again and again and again!cos, some people like syed taha didn't want to eat before we met jordan sooooooo! had to eat with my mum and aunt first! went back changed and met them! i don't call myself a downright attention seeker but i hate it when i'm being left out): like when taha and jordan were facing one another and playing the guitar.i just HAD TO budge in by squeezing in between them(: i know.i'm awesome like that!and i couldn't take it when taha plays and his lips twitch like super rabak and he calls it 'feel' like really taha?prolly its just your 'bal' frequency!left after awhile like before evening prayer time.

and thanks taha for sparing me your acoustic guitar and thanks to me for sparing you my classical strings for your classical guitar!(:
my guitar's like currently facing difficulties.
sobsob!

today-day-day!

went to school!-__- duh what else.went back home asap to meet up with my mum!(at home) hahaha.i love looking at my mum's face nowadays.she's seriously very pleasant looking.
try this, stare at them when they

wake you up in the morning(if they still do)
do all the household chores w/o having an angel like me to help out
cook for you (if they still do)
ask what you want for dinner/lunch/breakfast(if they still do)
when they wait up for you to eat together(if they still do)

you'll see nothing but patience and no signs of frustration/anger, or even tired faces.
if your parents do show those kinda like 'mean' faces, all i have to say is that i'm glad that my mum's wayyyy awesome than yours!(:

*and and and, the song covers i mentioned about weeks earlier*
a word ok no, a phrase of caution! pardon the faces-__-

kenangan terindah(taha this is for you,since you asked me to try it)

sunday morning(this is for all my fans out there! HAHAHAHAHAH)

&yeah,i love making noise at home(:

ahhhooooohscary

2009-07-14T11:18:00.005+08:00

hello maple-applecrrrrumblers(:
90 views like in a day? awesome.well that may not be as great as xiaxue's or those hothot bloggers.anyways, 90's good enough! haha.

just got back from school!and i wanna share a hair standing story i heard last night over the radio.midnight mysteries(now,thats perfect translation!) haha.sooooo,its about this ghost called.....kumkum ghost! hahaha.in malay,hantu kumkum! haha.ok anyways,anyhows...the lady was sharing her experience that occured in the 80's when she was walking back home with her 5 year old son.under the void deck as they were walking to the lift, they saw a figure,lady or man unsure wearing all black with their face all covered and can only see its eyes.its scary like that!her son, came closer to her, afraid of what was upfront.as they arrived in front of the lift,the thing started to walk in their direction! she pressed the button fast like f then when they got in, she pressed the close button like f too! what dyou expect? that scary thingy's following you! and so she stays on the 7th storey,and lift then were like only on certain levels.6,11 on so on and so fourth.so yeah,she got off on the 6th storey and went up.as she got up,she saw THE SAME black figure at the other end.she rummaged for her keys and as she was opening up her door, the black figure suddenly start chasing after them.she GOT IN ASAP and locked the door.as she was going to leave her keys at the side table she heard loud knocks and the thing saying,"kumkum,kumkum"its somewhat similar to what we malay/muslims say ,"assalamualaikum" which basically means,"may peace be upon you"so yeah.(i hope i got the right translations-__-) and yeah.if you actually open the door, you're indirectly allowing it to enter as you know....the evil spirit? something like that.so moral of the story, IF YOU HEAR SOMEONE KNOCKING AND UTTERING THOSE 'KUMKUMS' LISTEN PROPERLY IF IT IS THE RIGHT THINGY.HAHA!OR YOU'LL BE INVITING THE UNINVITED.huahuahuahuahua!

i turn right,i see you.turn left,YOU AGAIN!

2009-07-13T22:55:00.004+08:00

sorta just got back from a short dip at aunts place!(:
'we were so equipped for it!' well, i guess rai was.certainly not me and luqman!-__-
we jumped in with our under-wears!(not JUST the bottom ok!)
well, luqman basically wore his berms and boxers!wonder how he's gonna go back...
met my Arab stallion for awhile and left before rai and luqman.wondering how we ended up there? was cos rai's boyfriend idham is teaching our nieces Nadiah and Nadzirah.kinda shocking! but yeah, guess its a small world afterall.(come and sing along with me!: its a small world afterall, its a small world afterall..for you and for me?) haha!
ok, i need to finish up yan-yan's homework!
ta:)

2009-07-13T18:50:00.003+08:00

our quiet time,
your beautiful mind...

i am happily counting down the minutes till its time to break-fast!(: school was,alright?it would've been awesome if i could eat.haha!anyways anyhows, saidah and sam were fasting too!so yeah.had a fun time fb-ing despite the blow off!-__- and! how many times do i have to state that enrique iglesias along with my other eye candy's, are the hottest men alive/around! o i need to further elaborate?!(okok, enough of redundant obsessions!) so after school headed down to tampines yamaha with raden.needed to get strings for our babies(: haha!i'm not gonna take the risk of fixing it, just gonna wait for jordan to do it for me.

anyways, back to school!i guess i've mentioned that i've got fetish for hands? have i?if not, then there you go...i've got a fetish for hands.Huge hands to be precise!haha.and my science teacher has em!i think his hands movements are very synchronized and alluring!his name is mr s___ so since i wanna be a tai-tai, joke in class is that Datuk S will be my man! hahahaha.enquiries brought forward,"but he's not rich" I"LL MAKE HIM RICH."you'll have to send him to Beijing 101 first" (yes he is in a state of loosing hair)IM SURE HE'S GOT SOME BUCKAROOS TO SPONSOR HIMSELF FOR THAT RIGHT?hahahah! and he's like asking who's the guy.i think he can jolly suspect that its him-__- the others are married.

ahhooooahhh

2009-07-12T23:58:00.004+08:00

i'm personally in love with this guy's cover of Part Of The List.
basically cos he's hot?
hahahaha!
and yeah, nice tone going on!

aaron sweetheart, take me with you ):

2009-07-12T22:30:00.004+08:00

I GAINED 4 KG! YES,4 MISERABLE KG'S!

that was for the past half of the year!so i'm predicting another 4kg's by the end of 2009?
that simply spells a.w.e.s.o.m.e!
i'm not totally bothered by it, but hey i'm tall and if i'm fat, i'll look like a fcking troll!dang!
anyways anyhows,
on a brighter note,Aaron Johnson is bloody hot!(British ascent!)
flip-flipper-flippin-in-hell! :>

2009-07-12T18:43:00.005+08:00

BAD DREAM :/

i thought of taking an afternoon nap! and so i did:> was asleep! and i appeared straight at lala land! and i was at some family chalet thingy la.not sure where cos it certainly didn't seem like it was anywhere around Singapore.so yeah, everything was alright till my uncle was like telling us to watch out and not acknowledge anything of 'those' sort if we see em.so the last night there,then someone told us that the 'thing' was on the loose.i was dead scared by then! then as i was walking in the hall area,i was looking at my reflection on the window.yknow the black ones? ya those windows, i saw that freaking thing behind me,she had long black curly hair and her head was facing down.which was good cos i didnt wanna see how she looked like-___- as soon as i saw that,my heard was thumping real fast!one of my uncles who could see the 'thing' was like giving directions so that it could leave, or so if it was! i quickly sat beside my uncle.then 'she' came ssuper close to me!i closed my eyes and made sure i couldn't see anything! suddenly, i felt the heat and by then she was already in my body! she carried me up real high!i was damn close to the ceiling.she was grabbing on my ribcage!i was shouting my lungs out and the louder i got, the pain got much more intense.i could feel veins protecting my heart or something like that pop!it was a damn fking scary and painul torment!it was freaking hard to even call out God's name.sigh! soon my uncles pinned me down and got the thing out.God knows how! i was uncautious by then....goshh!the next morning, we hurriedly made our way back.thank God!

A MUCH MORE PLEASANT DREAM:/

and so, this morning after morning prayers.i went back to sleep.and yes!i dozed off to lala land:> there i met one of my friend's friend.hahahaha! he is bloody hot.his body is like something to drool for.i think it was cause yesterday night before going to bed i was browsing thru his albums.haha!got carried away laaa! anyways, there....we confessed.something like, "gosh! i have been waiting for this moment for ages now!thoughtwe would never meet,but thank God we did."awwwwwwwww!instead of holding on to his hands, i held on to his arms.hahaha!and and and, WE WERE LIKE SUPER IN LOVE! omgoshhhh, thats like the best dream ever.seriously a freaking fantasy.we were around jordan's area-___- and it was like coming 2am already, so i told him that i had to leave or my mum would scream at me!hahaha.then he was like,"but this could be the last time we'd meet,please spend more time with me" and true enough ;despite thinking hard of him before falling asleep, i got a nightmare !sad sad.i regret leaving him!see la! now cannot meet him in real life/dream ): !!!!!!

divine intervention

2009-07-12T12:44:00.004+08:00

ogay! i just got back from religious class:> was like late cos i switched off the alarm my my set for me before leaving!-___-anyways anyhows there were others who came by later! so yeah.just had lunch and naddy just called me to accompany her for lunch before she heads off for work(: i am superrr full! gonna stay home after that cos i've got piles and piles and piles of work to do!sigh*

back later bloaggay!
looking perfect is so over-rated!
:>

2009-07-12T00:29:00.003+08:00

a conversation that lasted less than two minutes,and you've got me feeling all so high(:
i called Jordan's number, thinking it was him...but it was you.hmmm!
it felt so real, so good![i kinda hate it when i'm using the same old words to describe happiness]
why oh why is it so hard?just confess it?as in you confess it to me?hahaha!well, in the first place, i hope that you've still got the #why oh why is it so hard?just confess it?as in you confess it to me?hahaha!well, in the first place, i hope that you've still got the #$&*( for me.haha!but nonetheless, i'm happy that i've got a best friend who's able to make me smile this wideee!love you anyways....
amp;*( for me.haha!but nonetheless, i'm happy that i've got a best friend who's able to make me smile this wideee!love you anyways....

lucky i'm in love with my bestfriend
lucky to have been where i have been
lucky to be coming home someday...

toothpaste kisses

2009-07-11T23:18:00.004+08:00

been watching angus thongs over and over again!-___-
i guess my play list pretty much tells it! haha.

lets see, today-day-day!i was suppose to go for practical but 'sadly' my tummy wasn't on my side for that!was stuck in the toilet for God knows how long! hahaha.so, i was feeling freaking bummed cos i was all dressed up already till i decided to call up my friend to catch a movie!transforrrrmers:> i know its like so yesterday, but we've yet to catch it! so yeah.better late than never i guess!as expected, Megan was hot! shizzle ma nuzzle hot!and there was one scene where Mikaela? was running with Sam to get to the dead ultamus?.so my friend was like, "this must be the best part"..puzzled i asked why,he replied,"cos its Megan fox running and its in slow motion" hahahahahahahaha!kinda true to a large extend i guess! haha.went bus hopping after that! it was freaking fun! had the best cracking up session ever!we were on the loose! hahahahaha.went back home, did what i needed to.went down again to meet taha and jordan! plus, jia hui and her friend(:went back at ten cos you see, i'm still under o level's curfew! hahhahaaha."hit me baby ONE MORE time"last time la please. so yeah.i'm too lazy to move an inch.lalala~

tell them, its human nature

2009-07-10T22:14:00.002+08:00

as my soul heals the shame, i will go thru this pain

:> geylow!
just got back from meeting up with atiq and the others.
i had a good time! thats about it! i'm lost for words.not in a bad way, just lazy i guess.haha!

whenever i see you
my smile is glued.

2009-07-09T13:46:00.004+08:00

i'm gonna be your number one! :D haha

tuition's in 15 minutes.yes, 3 days back to back! what more can i prolly ask for? luckily i had time for lunch.or else, don't even bother coming! cos i'll be a goner.i've been doing covers for songs! but i'm irritated that i can't do the one that needs a capo.i've yet to get one): Part of the list-Neyo is awesome.as introduced by atiq's brother! hahahah.i think i'm gonna make myself a cup of coffee.since my mum's not in): otherwise i would have gotten her to make one for me.hmms...anyways anyhows!

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HAPPy 17th MAI-MAI

may all your wishes come true!
do well for your o's cos trust me you don't wanna get caught up in the same situation twice-..-
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ok tuition just ended, my blogging was interupted-__-
i told her i'm gonna get a hamster and call it YanYan(:
cos thats what her friends call her.
so if i get like irritated or gerrrrram, i'll just squeeze the eyes out!
hahahaha,as if i would do so.
i'm an animal lover.except for cats/dogs/or basically any other fury animals
!!!!!

2009-07-08T19:25:00.005+08:00

too much MJ tributes going on.not that its a bad thing, people coming together showing their last appreciation to the late King Of Pop,is just overwhelming.anyways,anyhows....

today=the dullest day up to date!-__-
woke up to my sister's -"eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee,maknenek!!!!"
no idea why she was like "eeeeeee-ing!" feels great to see her after awhile.despite her having to squeeze her body right next to me.cos 'her' bed felt so awesome-,-" hahahaha.(i was having a hard time breathing too, thought i was gonna get a cardiac arrest like Micheal Jackson did.still i'm not sure if cardiac arrest has got something to do with short breathlessness) got up at ten! kinda 'gabra' cos i've got tuition in half an hour.after a few bites of the breakfast sister brought over, my tutor arrived!today for math.i wouldn't say stress is the word, just a lil packed.hahhahahaha! stress is so over-rated la really! hahaha.i would most prolly get all so stressed up if my wallet's empty.that's more like it! haha.and and! i got my baby tuned up yesterday!i am super happy!i've been playing with it eversince.bought one too with Raden yesterday after school.thinking that my baby(rai-na's guitar) was spoilt): it was just out of tune.went to Yamaha yesterday afternoon after tuition to get a tuner and lots of colourful picks not knowing that the different sizes were labels for different tones-___-with my brother and to pass some of my late Bopleh's stuff to maimai cos she's getting one for her bday!awesome:> wonder when i'm ever gonna be getting one.tsk!

oh well, thats about it i guess.
shall post two of the covers of White Flag and Zombie once my brother gets home.its in his phone.the phone i'm using now is TOO updated to have all those features-..- hahaha!

&&; these are shots i took from a sketch dearest Syed Taha did:D
its for his project!i know of all faces, mine.hahahahaha! thanks dear.*coughs*

he did this one:D
OK I SO PREFER LONG HAIR NOW.

brrr! its cold in here.

2009-07-06T15:38:00.006+08:00

TODAY!; i am fasting!its payback time once again sweethearts.after today I'll be left with one more day:> woke up at one and i super love the smell of the air/ambience whtever.something like a burnt kinda scent plus the cold cold-ish kinda feeling? hahahaha.i just love it la ok!went to run some errands with my mum the heavy rain was certainly not helping-__-and the perfume i sprayed on today,really really adds on to the 'miss' feeling :( i am not gonna pin up high hopes.i'm not sure why,listening to my guts this time round i guess.

and i really hate guys who love trying their luck.can't you people be a lil more sincere in doing something?we girls aren't your bootie call.and i've gotta agree with the phrase, "karma hits back three times hard" been there felt that.so my appeal to all the babes out there, we ought to be putting a stop to SCANDALISM.hahahahahahahahahaaah.(thats more like a reminder to yours truely!) haha.ok i wanna watch some scary movie my brother downloaded! :> he just got back.yay!

Love takes time
To heal when you're hurting so much
Couldn't see that I was blind
To let you go
I can't escape the pain
Inside
'Cause love takes time
I don't wanna be here
I don't wanna be here alone

You might say that it's over
You might say that you don't care
You might say you don't miss me
You don't need me
But I know that you do
And I feel that you do
Inside

2009-07-05T13:45:00.003+08:00

its been two days or so,my brother's working offshore[first time liao] :( stranded in the middle of south china sea! i knew i was gonna miss him so i got him to email me some pictures.just received them this morning! he said that he'll be back soon.prolly by tomorrow morning!will you hurry already?i miss you.

&oh! thanks for the blurry pictures of birds flying-__-

2009-07-05T00:22:00.001+08:00

old videos of the Family Guy that never fails to crack me up! :>

there's the one before this that's somewhat related.

2009-07-04T21:09:00.002+08:00

just a quickie! :>
didn't do much today.had science prac today!(miserable Saturday's once again) tuition-__- life can't get any better really!i've yet to get the video card for my comp! cos that's the thingy that's not in the system for me to play my sims3): so much for being a patriot! still cannot play liaoxsxs!anybody wanna drive me up to sim lim? :D hahaha!
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ok i miss my enrique.
i miss my arab stallion.
but why am i still feeling awkward?

2009-07-04T00:32:00.007+08:00

if guys can do it so can i!:>

MEGAN FOX IS BLEEDING HOT.
her eyes,speak a thousand words
her figure, is an art on its own
her freaking self is just something anyone would yearn to have/be.
i guess!

she looks hot just like that! am i pissed or what!-___-

she looks a lil drag here though:/

seXXXAy

yumyums.
ok i wanna sleep.
goodnight megan:>

ring my bells

2009-07-03T23:24:00.003+08:00

sexxxay! :>

he's so hot,that he can't even get a grip over himself.his dingdongs were getting in the way!

dearest enrique, are you listening to me?cos i would cross the oceans,ride the elephants,hump on bolsters just to get there to you!ohhhmyyyy -__-

yes! the first track playing on my list.
RING MY BELLS.
you can really feel that emotion the sensuality
the intense and deep orgasmic feeling
that would knock any babe off her feet
feels like he's so close to you and whispering those words to your ears...
yeow!

anyways anyhows! he's with that tennis girl.
well i think she's a tennis player.
OH YES SHE IS:>
i am 'so happy for you enrique' heh!
but hell yeah is she hot.
[im trying to get my attention off megan]

she definitely has the body!

enough to get her boyfriend horny!-..-

not really the face, very fierce.
but body!i would trade anything for THAT!
ok la not really.still prefer megan's
:>

life is wonderful

2009-07-03T21:43:00.002+08:00

i am
animate,ardent,brisk,buoyant,dynamic,ebullient,elated,energetic,enthusiastic,excited,fervent,gay,happy,
passionate,peppy,quick,snappy,spirited,sprightly,zealous,zippy!
and that my dear readers are synonyms for happy! and currently i am out of words to describe it![and yes, i went to thesaurus.com to get them] hahaha! i just got back from soccer-__- with the guys.they are super kecoh i swear.a bit a bit only they will say that they'll complain to my brother or if anyone tries to injure me my brother will come with his super4 and ride them up! haha.i really don't mind the harsh play, im kinda used to it, thanks to netball! hahaha.its been awhile since i've gotten that adrenaline rush.basically cos i was scared of their ram's.but nonetheless, i had a fun time!:> sorry taha for just leaving the game hanging, i heard my phone ring! hahaha.and oh! hope your injury's alright!and by 930pm mum was already calling me up demanding that i get my arse back cos she wanted to hit the sack and i didn't bring my bunch of keys:( so yeah.it was a short but fulfilling game!

anyways, allow me to repeat myself...
i am
animate,ardent,brisk,buoyant,dynamic,ebullient,elated,energetic,enthusiastic,excited,fervent,gay,happy,
passionate,peppy,quick,snappy,spirited,sprightly,zealous,zippy!
why so sudden?i am not gonna drag a whole cliche story but yeah,
i'm not gonna waste my chance this time round?:>
somethingggggg like that la hor! haha.

2009-07-03T14:23:00.002+08:00

HELLO.
its been two days since i last updated
so yeah.its been school and nothing more...
bore?not really.i'll be very very busy from next week onwards.
math twice a week,sci twice a week.excluding school! i guess its all for the better.
tata! :>

does it have to be this hard?
i don't quite know what i want.
hummmph!i hate this part right here.
call me fickle.

its ironic to be back in the game, but i'm lovin it!

2009-07-01T22:04:00.009+08:00

hahahahaha! sorry dear!

sorry!

nadiah being insecure of her odour(:

hello! just got back from the library with naddy:>

2009-07-01T12:14:00.002+08:00

i was awaken by the strong aroma of chicken rice!!!!! :>

yes!menu of the day is chicken rice! hahaha.my sleep last night was pretty cool! you know when you get dreams,you can actually change it here and there to how you like it to happen.it was like the best dream i've ever directed.guess i got carried away while chatting with my arab stallion last night.quote unquote,"it was awesomeeeeee!you should know" remind me of it.hahahahahaahha. i'm listening to my song! yes my song, well i don't own it.but yaaaaaa,the title's my name! fuafuafua.

allow me to do the translations.

Farhana(well mine has a 'h' so yeah)-H

when i was down,you were there
you came and brought the light
when i was happy,you weren't there
you hurt me by doing so

you sweet smile resembles a princess
mother nature's best creation? (hahaha,i couldnt get the translation for one of the word)
i fall into dreams just searching
for that stunning one

the petals are nicer than the stalk? (HAHAHAHAHA, i obviously suck in malay!)
just like a pretty red flower
far from missing you love
in looking for what is meant by faithful

when i was down,you were there
you came and brought the light
when i was happy,you weren't there
you hurt me by doing so

CHORUS

farhana oh farhana
you hurt me as you leave
craving for your secretive love
gave me the meaning of everything?!

OMGOSH i can't do anymore translations.i'm sucking baddddddddd.

just a lil misunderstanding!

2009-06-30T15:24:00.003+08:00

just had tuition:> and i really really thank God for 'sending' a great tutor to me.not only is she talented in the subs, she understands me.better than others at times!we hate watching adventure related movies.we sleep with our legs folded in the air!(and that my dear readers,is a talent!).we hate it when our gfs put their boyfriends over everything.like seriously...save all that affection and get a room people!prolly cos we're not attached, but yeah.spending time with your boyfriend is acceptable, but 24/7?let me do the honors of puking blood for you!ROFL.basically, she understands me.i'm not trying to say my friends don't.but yeah!i tell her everyting,each and every single detail. it feels good letting go!i don't know if i like or am in favour of people getting hurt/irrtated by my posts, but hey, if you're alert enough in feeling it or basically reading it off the page.then there you go.i prefer letting go of what i've got piling up.otherwise why bother have an online journal?pfft.

ok bye!going to get dinner with my brother:>

taaaaaa!

2009-06-29T17:13:00.002+08:00

i just got back my results today! :D mixed feelings.previously for combined sciences,i got 81% or something?now...84% !excluding prac.i won't be shocked if prac pulls my marks down at the end of the day.math?still not good enough[!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!]just a pass.nothing marvelous. dang!i've been ignoring my combine humans.and no i don't go for lessons for that.i have a tutor at home to guide me.should start hardcore mugging liaoxsxs.i feel so secondary school-ish.hmmph!

i'm starting to feel all so sinful ever since i've been listening to the religious songs.is that good? haha.but am i doing anything to correct my wrongs? lalala~

And to whoever it may concern.to that clown-voice dude esp! you're seriously the worst lad i've ever come across !violence and assault is never the way to solve a matter.what more on a girl.it'd just make problems worse.now that they're gonna press charges on you,good luck on handling them.you still had the bloody cheek to say,"i know i hit her harder" a-hole[!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!] by doing so, you just made me despise you even more!i had my reasons to hate him from the start babe.i knew he was just up no good!prooooven.no worries, if i see him, i'll give him a good wallop!!! UGH.

2009-06-28T13:29:00.003+08:00

ok so lets do some updating! yay(:
yesterday, went to mt sophia with ariffin and atiq.
it was jam packed!but that wasn't really something to stop me from grabbing and by that i mean getting a couple of stuff!i am pretty much satisfied by them!went to far east after that to eat and continue with what was ignored...more shopping!cheap cheap one,like really.everything needs to be worth the money.otherwise don't bother even if its nice!got false lashes on.first time or so for atiq! she regards it as a torture.hahahaha!you'll get used to it babe.kinda overshadows you but yeah.went back after that before meeting up with jordan.what else but to lepakxsxsxss.sounds very minah.oh well!went back after awhile cos i've got religious class the next day(today)

today! went for religious class.had a very youtube related lesson indeed.the ustaz showed us videos of awesome religious songs online.and there's this one song,Forgive me when i whine.it reminds us to be grateful over what we've been blessed with.simplest example is, we're born perfect.a pair of hands, a pair of legs,a pair of eyes, a nose to smell, a pair of ears to listen and a mouth to speak.we humans are God's best creation.and yet, we still whine and drag over what we've got.forgive us God for we are forgetful and ungrateful of all that you've blessed us with.

forgive me when i whine

and i got videos of football players who died on the pitch.
death invites you wherever whenever people.
it scares me to the core!

this one is the scariest, he looks like he was being possesed by something during his last moments.
oh well..may God bless their souls.

2009-06-26T13:30:00.002+08:00

how much more unbelievable can it get?
rest in peace Micheal Jackson...
i was just listening to his song,one of my favourites,
you are not alone
and this morning my mum told me he died after suffering some sort of a heart attack
hmm,50 only and he's gone.
oh well, death invites you young or old.

rest in peace, King of Pop.

2009-06-25T12:03:00.003+08:00

believe it or not!:i painted my nails red last night(:

2009-06-24T07:42:00.002+08:00

my oh my! where were we?(:

i'm psyched!for school.i'm still wondering why, so don't bother asking.hehe!i couldn't doze off till3 am plus this morning.today's like my last day for payback!!!yes, i'm fasting.wanted to go for a run, but considering the fact that i'm fasting...nahhhh!my mum was like comparing herself with me in the list of things she can do when she's fasting and what i can do when i'm fasting-..- obviously i'm like down with a few points.AND! since i'm fasting, i'm listening to hari raya songs!its really very motivational people.try it!!! hahahaha.AND AND! i've got a feeling that this year's gonna be an awesome year after all.like really(times 1000) !!! ANYWAYS, sharing with you readers on what i heard over the radio yesterday.midnight mysteries*dot dot dot*

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pardon my translation!!!it may not make sense.hahahaahaha!!!
so this guy, his wife is pregnant so at times she's allergic to smoke smell as in, be it cigarette smoke or cooking smoke, so she seldom cooks.being an understanding husband, he didn't complain.so one night he just reached home, checked the stove, wife didn't cook.so being a savvy(i mean save save one) he rode down to his mum's place at Hougang.He stays at Punggol.So after catching up with his mum for awhile, he left.Upon reaching his house parking lot, multi-storey car park he's been getting the instinct that someone's following him from the back till he finally decided to turn and see what was behind him.HE SAW A FREAKING LADY STANDING ON THE HUMP IN THE MIDDLE.and by lady i mean that lady.he was freaking shocked so he ran to his block!went under his block, pressed the button for the lift.suddenly he heard cries of, "take me with you...." like again and again.he was freaking scared by then.he was thinking if he should get on the lift cos the thing might just trap him in there.so he decided to climb the stairs.he stays on the 5th floor.when he was on the 3rd level, he started hearing soft cries.of a lady...he went back down on ground floor and was thinking what he should do next.suddenly an aunty came and wanted to get on the lift, lucky for him,she stays on the 9th floor.so he leaves before her.got off the lift, he ran back home.at home, he went to his room and gave his wife a peck on the forehead. went to the kitchen and was preparing for his meal when suddenly he heard a loud scream from his room.HIS WIFE WAS SCREAMING AT THE TOP OF HER LUNGS AND SHE WAS HITTING HER HEAD PROFUSELY!he was out of plans.called his mum over and they got a person who understands such spiritual happenings better over.APPARENTLY, the lady followed him home and decided to disturb his wife who was pregnant with their first child.

ta daaaaaaa! thats my translated version.
:D

like really?

2009-06-22T22:21:00.003+08:00

I CREATED A BLOG-SHOP(:
out of random and out of my mum's nagging to limit my wardrobe's content!
check me out: orgasmic-thrills.blogspot.com

2009-06-22T20:30:00.002+08:00

i am super super full! so as mentioned on my previous post, I'll be fasting for 3 days straight.so for dinner,my mum filled up the whole table with lots and lots of food(:i thought of gobbling them all,but usually when i'm fasting, there's like a limit to whatever i consume.at times smaller than my daily portion.hmms!anyways...

went to Parkway on my own just now.had to grab something from MNG cos the sale is just freaking tempting!had to run some errands for my mum before cabbing back home.i swear i was freaking tired by the time i got back home.so i basically had my reasons to not help out with the chores at home.well its not like,i actually need reasons to cover up...just a stronger reason! hahaha.

i've got tuition tomorrow-..-
yay!